I has been a while. Ten months has been way too long for a project that I was to start, and finally keep going. Over the summer and into the winter, I had a series of continuous relapses, followed by another breakout from the allergy, a breakout in handcuffs as they say in AA. I can’t say that I know what happened, because I honestly don’t. But I do know some things that did not happen.
- I did not follow through on my step work, for one.
- I did not keep in touch with my sponsor, or pick up the phone.
- I did not keep writing here.
- I did not keep journaling.
- I did not switch therapists, when I realized mine had ran her course.
- I did not stick up for myself.
Many other things happened before, during, and after my “bad time.” However, I am sure those things will come out naturally. For now. I’m just saying, “I’m here.”